Yesterday morning, I got up, ate a bowl of cereal, did a very short workout on the elliptical, took a shower and got ready for work. I hopped in my car and drove to the office while it poured rain excited that traffic wasn’t as bad as it usually is in the rain.
You know what else I did?
I completely forgot to go to the cancer center to have labs drawn.
This is something I do every Wednesday morning on my way to work.
It’s not that I just forgot to take a different exit on my way to work. I usually leave the house and take a completely different route to the cancer center than I do to go to work. It never even crossed my mind.
I made it to the office, sat down at my desk and opened Outlook. As soon as I did, a reminder popped up that I was to have labs drawn at 8:15. I cocked my head to the side like these little guys:
and thought, “What day is this?” Then, I realized it was Wednesday and yep, I forgot to go to the cancer center on my way to work.
Hmmm….. So, what does this mean? Because everything has to mean something these days, right?? :)
- It could mean that for the first time since I started treatment that I wasn’t consciously thinking about having cancer.
- It could mean that I’m feeling so good that getting labs drawn was the last thing on my mind.
- It could mean that were other things on my mind like work and just life, in general, that were distracting me from focusing on cancer.
- It could be a combination of all these things.
That makes me think of the Christmas M&M commercial where the red and yellow M&Ms come marching into the room and see Santa and the yellow one says, “He DOES exist!” and Santa says, “They DO exist!” and then they both faint! I love that spot.
Oh, well. I digress. After being slightly annoyed with myself for forgetting, I was actually pretty excited about it. I really think it meant, for the first time in a long time, that I wasn’t thinking about cancer the minute I woke up in the morning. For a brief time this morning, I had a taste of what life used to be like. And it was nice.