What usually happens when we don’t get our way? We get angry, right? We get mad, sometimes even furious because things are not turning out the way we want them to – someone is not doing things the way we want them to, something is not happening the way it should be happening, we do not have control. In essence, we are not getting our way. So we get mad.
That’s how I feel today. I’m mad. Things are not turning out at all the way I hoped and prayed they would. I mentioned on Friday that I was worried and praying for a friend who was having some tests done to hopefully rule out breast cancer.
Well, it didn’t get ruled out and now my friend has been handed a cancer diagnosis. There are still more tests to be done before the complete diagnosis can be made, but based on what we know now, this journey is going to be tougher than we hoped.
So, I’m mad. I’m angry. In fact, I think I’m more mad about this than I was about my own diagnosis. I’m confused and I want to know why this is happening. Why does it have to happen to her, to her family? It seems so unfair. They’ve been through a lot already and now this.
I don’t want my friend to walk this road, to have to face her fears and muster up crazy amounts of courage. I don’t want her to join the cancer club – I want her to stay out! :) I don’t want her family to be afraid and worried and anxious.
But I don’t have control of this. Oh, I WISH I did because I would love to kick this (and every other) cancer to the curb! What I do have control over is what I can do for my friend and that is to (as Martina McBride would sing) love her through it.
My Sweet Friend – I know you are reading this. :) I know you are scared and sad and disappointed and worried and anxious, not only for yourself, but for your family. I also hope that you know how much you are loved. There is an army of people who care for you and who are ready to support you through this unwanted journey. WE WILL help you through this. WE WILL encourage you, pray for you, and love you through this. You are not alone.